June_Alexandria's Xanga

Friday, June 15, 2007

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 19:31:26 GMT

wow i haavent written in this in FOREVER!!!!

i've converted to myspace for some reason

but i gotta write in here more.

september 8th it will be 4 years since i signed onto this thing!

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 00:36:03 GMT

Wow I hate life. I know no one reads this anymore hehehe so i can say whatever. WAit even if people did read this I can still say whatever

I hate life . There's nothing good about it anymore. There's a guy I like and i haven't seen him for like 3 4 weeks and he was suppoused to see me tonight and he cancelled. He said family stuff, none of my business. He's cancelled like 5 times and to be honest it just seems like he's dangling me on a string. He told me he'd make it up to me but I won't see him until almost christmas since he's going o mexico. And in mexico theres a girl named dany who's first on his myspace ( and i have no place at all) who he's always leaving messages for. I don't think he really likes me. I realy don't think i'm a likeable person.Everyone I like seems to always leave or they fall in love with someone prettier than me

I really don't see why I should just keep going on in life. Life doesn;t have anything for me. It never did... haha....

a massive update~

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 02:02:29 GMT

oh my gawd

I can't believe it's been so long since I posted in my xanga. Lets see here

update on my life. I don't live with my mom anymore. She moved back with her loser husband which sucks but whatever. I do caricatures for a living now and for awhile I've been in a slump and I hate it and when I finally feel like drawing again, some dumb lady let go of the door on the bus which has a big pole and smacked my hand.

Bitch

anyway but I haven't felt like drawing for like fucking more than a month and then after having lunch with a co worker, manny, I felt like dude fuck it, draw and make fun of people. It's what you're paid to do. But today I went a little out but I think I can do better. After all it's the only thing to look forward to for the next month anyway.

My love life sucks now. The guy I was seeing went to italy for a week, san fran for two, and then heading over to mexico city for like a month and a half. ( he's a rich kid) I really liked him too, despite my disdain for the rich who know no suffering and have it good 24/7. the pretty boy antonio decided that he was moving with some chick and he couldn't do this anymore. The thing that pisses me off was that last month he told me to leave him alone so I did and then walks into my life getting my hopes up and then tells me that shit? Why even bother. He gave me a weak ass sorry but I don't believe in the word SORRY.

so yeah life is okay and now i'm off to watch prison break.

peace~

ooo

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 00:01:32 GMT

i feel sick and the con is a few weeks away!! YAY!

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 23:16:36 GMT

day 878 of xanga.

i am awesome. Woulda been longer but i forgot my original xanga password. haha.

Anyway life is ...life. I dont know what to do with myself. well other than cause havoc at work and hope to get fired and go down in a blaze of glory at a crappy dept store. People are all like 'omg you got a job!'

but i tell people i'm unemployeed. I hate that place. Costco start hiring!

but seriously i am not happy. I realize that if i'm no drawing or watching TV i feel really sad. I have no friends. My family thinks im a joke and my co workers cant stand to look at me since i have horrible scars on my face

Monday, January 23, 2006

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 23:37:23 GMT

oh man i want a cold cherry pepsi.

And i think this year i shall show off my lurvy portfolio to lots of comic companies at teh comic con.

I think.

But just to be safe i'll do manga, and amerrrrrican comic styles!

cause i can beeatch

peace ~

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 08:59:12 GMT

OMG how long has it been since i posted here?

Its like holy shit i forgot about my xanga! But i havent forgotten about it My computer is acting up and I have been busy working and stuff.

take care~

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 21:54:44 GMT

we will now review how i been a dumbass

i think a few days ago I was at work and the guy i liked showed me a picture of a girl. And he told everyone that was his g/f. and then the next day, he was like ( i called him that night) and he was like "you intruppted* me" so here i was thinking he was making out with some chick or something and FINALLY i ask him about it and he goes

" i was playing a game"

hahaha ...and i was like what the hell...and he laughs and goes " you thought i was making out with a girl? HAHAHAHAHAHA"

and the girl on his phone

" someone i like but i wont tell her"

i feel like an idiot. ugh

I dont get it. he kisses me twice..well more than that..almost whatever but he stopped and HE said " dont you think we're moving too fast?" i mean wtf? I dont know if he even thinks im cute. farkin hell.

and in other news. THE COMIC CON IS NEARLY HERE!!!!!!!!!

love y'all

peace~

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 20:35:22 GMT

i think i shouldnt hook up with that guy. hes too nice for me. I mean i dunno...SO CONFUSINGGGGGG

i think i just want my manga ive been waiting a MONTH FOR!!!!!!!

WAHHAHAHAH

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 16:15:17 GMT

Things have gotten so wierd.

I like someone at work and for awhile there I thought i never...well I dunno.

I wanted to do something for my 19th birthday ( yesterday) and my co workers planned to get me drunk or whatever. two of them didnt go so i went to the movies with HIM. ( haha im such a dork) and we tried to watch hitchhikers guide to the galaxy but i dunno. It wasnt all that funny. ( or maybe it was cause i couldnt really pay attention...)
But I didnt want to go in the house yet so we ended up talking and then...he was all over me yo. I was like whoa...AM I FUCKING DREAMING!?!?!?! I almost...but I didnt. ( fuckin willpower...wtf..sighhh) but i wanted it so badly but I wasnt too completely um...gone I guess... so I made him stop.

it felt good. too good

and that means that that jerk was right

sex feels like a drug. once you had it youll want more of it.

and i almost gave into that. I guess i should be "proud" of myself but geeze...i shoulda just did it. But he did say "im glad you stopped me"

i
wanna
kick
myself
HARD

peace~