wow i haavent written in this in FOREVER!!!!

i've converted to myspace for some reason

but i gotta write in here more.

september 8th it will be 4 years since i signed onto this thing!

  Wow I hate life.  I know no one reads this anymore hehehe so i can say whatever. WAit even if people did read this I can still say whatever

I hate life .  There's nothing good about it anymore.  There's a guy I like and i haven't seen him for like 3 4 weeks and he was suppoused to see me tonight and he cancelled.  He said family stuff, none of my business.  He's cancelled like 5 times and to be honest it just seems like he's dangling me on a string.  He told me he'd make it up to me but I won't see him until almost christmas since he's going o mexico.  And in mexico theres a girl named dany who's first on his myspace ( and i have no place at all) who he's always leaving messages for.  I don't think he really likes me.  I realy don't think i'm a likeable person.Everyone I like seems to always leave or they fall in love with someone prettier than me

I really don't see why I should just keep going on in life.  Life doesn;t  have anything for me.  It never did... haha....

a massive update~

oh my gawd

  I can't believe it's been so long since I posted in my xanga.  Lets see here

 update on my life.  I don't live with my mom anymore.  She moved back with her loser husband which sucks but whatever.  I do caricatures for a living now and for awhile I've been in a slump and I hate it and when I finally feel like drawing again, some dumb lady let go of the door on the bus which has a big pole and smacked my hand. 

Bitch

  anyway but I haven't felt like drawing for like fucking more than a month and then after having lunch with a co worker, manny, I felt like dude fuck it, draw and make fun of people. It's what you're paid to do.  But today I went a little out but I think I can do better.  After all it's the only thing to look forward to for the next month anyway.

  My love life sucks now.  The guy I was seeing went to italy for a week, san fran for two, and then heading over to mexico city for like a month and a half.  ( he's a rich kid) I really liked him too, despite my disdain for the rich who know no suffering and have it good 24/7.  the pretty boy antonio decided that he was moving with some chick and he couldn't do this anymore.  The thing that pisses me off was that last month he told me to leave him alone so I did and then walks into my life getting my hopes up and then tells me that shit?  Why even bother.  He gave me a weak ass sorry but I don't believe in the word SORRY. 

  so yeah life is okay and now i'm off to watch prison break.

peace~

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day 878 of xanga. 

 i am awesome.  Woulda been longer but i forgot my original xanga password.  haha.

 Anyway life is ...life.  I dont know what to do with myself.  well other than cause havoc at work and hope to get fired and go down in a blaze of glory at a crappy dept store.  People are all like 'omg you got a job!'

but i tell people i'm unemployeed.  I hate that place.  Costco start hiring!

but seriously i am not happy.  I realize that if i'm no drawing or watching TV i feel really sad.  I have no friends.  My family thinks im a joke and my co workers cant stand to look at me since i have horrible scars on my face